theodora93

 Happy Birthday to you!  All you Sept folks!

 Hi all! Lost in the terrestrial pursuits again. I am reminded with the impending NOTOCon that it has been a long time since I posted.  It is hot here and the air is barely moving... The neighbors are yelling but it sounds friendly.

I am sitting in my home(ONCE AGAIN) office on the computer.

I am starting my doctoral degree in Chinese medicine in Sept and dealing with the business involved.

I am once again, for awhile now, single. My gf left with the dog about 4 monthes ago.

I am playing low brass again. I have approached playing euphonium as a meditation and it is wonderful.

Anyhow a friend just came by so off I go. 

 I am curious today about the rest of the world. I am coming out of my own personal winter and heading into my own personal spring. What a magnificent day it has been.

 Happy day to you my friend and Brother!

 The message seems to be, are you comfortable being alone with yourself. The message of the water element, reflect and rest. One of the messages at least, I am also taking stock of my resources.

I am looking at what I have given and whether it was given freely.  Its not easy to look at the hard facts of who I am but there is no better mirror than a relationship to see the motivations hiding in my actions. I can sit in self pity or I can feel what there is to feel, as it comes up, recognize it for the energy it is, and let it pass. 

I am a deep explorer of my insides, my history, and my relationships. It is difficult for me to be casual and I find partners regularly without the language or interest to explore these places in themselves and with me.

The search for companionship is a long road during a 7th house Uranus transit. I am seeking that internal company in the long run and perhaps as I cultivate that relationship, human, physical company will come.

 My dear friends and Brothers and Sisters:

Thank you for a most wonderful Solstice evening. I am feeling lifted, and grateful for the kindness and fraternity I received. 

As the darkness begins to ebb and the light flow, I see the spring will come again and my sad heart will once again be full.

93

 Despite many votes to the contrary, today I feel like a LOSER, a jerk, a bad friend. It is most likely an episode of self pity. 

It nonetheless has a bitter flavor and is a lonely experience.

This has been a very hard week.

 I love my job. I work long hours at times but it is wholey satisfying. 

 93 Sweet Sister

I do appreciate you so!

Lizzy

Wow ! September was a hell of a month.

I fell madly in love with a beautiful woman.  If you have no stomach for romantic mush, move on, I can't help myself.

Then went on a long driving trip to BIg Sur where I attended the Sun magazine writers workshop.  Beautiful place, Esalen. I was well received as a writer and poet.  And I received the sweetest love notes via text and email throughout the trip. I liked this a lot, really a lot. I wrote some good stuff, met a lot of really cool people, editors, etc. and made some good artistic connections,as well.

I then came back to the ensuing romance. I have never been with someone so sweet. What to say- she is the right amount butch, very soft, Virgo Moon, but Scorpio Rising and Leo Sun. I feel as though I have been caught in her web and am being devoured. Its lovely.

School has started and I am actually teaching this year- a core curriculum class,  Acupuncture Techniques. I love my students. I love my TA's (teacher assistants), Ariche :). It really is great to present this material the way I want, after 13 years of being the TA.

We had our Equinox ritual where I got to see Mobyjane, what a marvelously lovely woman. I introduced my sweetheart to the lodge via cultofzir's incredible workings.

I was baptised. This was the most intimate ritual I have been in yet at the  lodge.  Wow, beautiful.  Since, I have  been in two masses.  I am enjoying this. This was a big deal for me, I have never been involved in a church this way before.

Then horror of horrors, this magnificent wonder woman left for a two month trip to help her grandmother out. This is most tragic. We are conducting an electronic communication but it lacks the heat in my bed. I do enjoy the sound of her voice in my ear at night, however. So we have now arrived at Oct.

 Until next time.

I was a fan of Yes. I wa introduced by one of my first girlfriends--Theirs was the first rock show I ever went to.

Here i sit poking away at this little box, in a motel room in a smallish town in Southern Oregon, Grant's Pass to be exact.

I am on my way to a writing workshop put on by the Sun magazine. I am very excited.  This is one of my absolute favorite publications, noads, and all kinds of marvelous writers. Did I say NO ADS.

The workshop is being held at Esalen, the famous hippy freelove nudist resort. We will see how beautiful it is. Its about 2 hours from SF.

I am very excited to visit the redwoods. Trees, ah, some of my favorite life on this planet.

I just Friday night went out to the land I grew up on. I haven't gone in several years because of the logging.

I wrote a poem about it a few years ago. It goes like this:

"We didn't own the place"

Trees
Tall trees-evergreen
A house with cedar shakes
Put there by
My mother's hands.
Dog's barking
Pitbulls
Barking like I'd just arrived
And mud--red clay
A long way
Up the creek bed called a driveway.
The forest of childhood
And hiding places.
The orcheard with a reward
For a climb
and in the rich loam
Mushrooms.

Fields, once fields
Now forests,
Monospecies forest
Forests , now stumps.
Once a house,
Now someone's shed
and still the dogs
Doberman-shepherd
Still the dogs
Barking.

Happy birthdate! 93's LizM

So here I go--I am making soup--may sound small but I haven't cooked anything short of a sandwich or pasta in monthes. So the soup is a curried turkey meat ball with  shiitake mushrooms , carrots,  green beans and red chard. It smells wonderful. I made up the recipe  on the spot.

I really love having my office in my house (acupuncturist) so I can do stuff while people are resting with points.

Playing music with agaperos was very cool. I actually have never harmonized with my recorded self. It was lovely. I am excited to play more.

The weekend was a lot. I saw my most recent ex for the first time  since I broke up with him and then went a memorial  for someone who literally dropped dead.  A  very sweet man  who  had just become a papa.  Fortunately  this was followed abruptly by a most beautiful mass.
I am so glad to be welcomed by the mass teams to play music. I am so glad we do so many masses at Sekhet Maat.

thanks to all my new friends...will be most happy to follow you posts

After hearing SO much about lj I am giving it a whirl. I am curious . OK  Notocon tipped me but I can make no guarantees about the committment to hours in front of a computer screen. I really like people more. Live flesh and blood....so hopefully something good will come of this endeavor. Love yaz